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And that my friends is the magic of oxi clean.
In other news, mom, dad, and I went to eat hibachi this afternoon. I am so stuffed its ridiculous. Hibachi used to be hands down my most favorite eating out experience. However, once I moved from the big city of Florence (total sarcasm) it really lost its magic. It was a big event to eat hibachi when I was younger. We had to drive an hour to Huntsville in order to eat it. Now, it seems like you can get it just about anywhere and the appeal is somewhat gone. Don't get me wrong, the food is still to die for. I mean, the ginger dressing, mushroom soup, fried rice with just the right hint of soy and terriaki? It doesn't get much better.... but the experience just isn't the same. So sad when the magic Japanese men of your youth turn into young American guys just flinging around some spatchulas. I mean our guy today didn't even speak. For the love of pete, at least make me an onion volcano or flick some shrimp tails in my glass. Once again, I feel as though the world has just lost a little of its spark lately.
Talked to Adam this morning as well... maybe thats why I am so down. We got in a ridiculous argument for which I should be awarded "super bitch of the year". He was telling me how some of the girls in Kuwait with him have been cheating on their husbands with some of the other guys. Well, when a wife hears something like this the first thought is "you better not be thinking about anything like that!". This might be ok to think, but my advice is don't share that with your husband. I said something and Adam got totally offended. I didn't mean anything by it so I tried to explain and just dug my hole even deeper. I said "well honey, you are going to be away from me for so long and I know how you are.." Again, not smart. I meant that I know what is on a 25 year old guy's brain most of the time. There is no need to type it. We all know it. Now, place that 25 year old guys brain in a situation where there is no wife/girlfriend. You get the idea. Not that I don't trust Adam. He has got to be the most faithful and loving man I have ever met. I think I just needed that little "honey, you know I love you and would never even dream of doing that." but instead I got the little "how can you even think that??!! Do you think I am the devil or something? I can't believe you don't trust me!" I felt horrible. Here he is stuck in this awful hell hole and I am questioning him about being faithful. I know, I suck. I cried on the phone with him and that upset him even more. We only had 1 minute left when I started crying and I know it killed him to get off the phone with me when he know I was upset. Thankfully we were able to talk later and appologize to each other. I have got to make a more conscious effort to just hold in my thoughts and not put any more stress on him. Poor guy is already going through enough.
Well, with that I am going to walk away, super bitch award in hand, and call it a day. Its only about 2:30, but I could use some bum time. Maybe a depressing lifetime movie will be on where the woman is meaner than me... that would make me happier. Day three of work tomorrow, but it will only be me there so maybe it won't be too bad. Fill you in tomorrow!
Jun 27, 2009
After work I got to come home and take a nap with a lovely lifetime movie in the background. I just love lifetime. They always have some movie showing which never fails to make you feel better about your own life. I mean, no matter how bad things get, at least you aren't an abused wife with a child who recently got kidnapped and is now being trafficed in South America while your secret lover was killed in a car accident going to visit your dying sister. Anyway, this one was pretty funny from the few segments I caught. A woman went to Hawaii to fulfill the last request of her now deceased surrogate mother only to find out her real mother was not actually dead as she had thought. All the while she finds love in her surrogate mother's nephew who happens to be about 20 years her junior. Think "the graduate goes Hawaiian". I couldn't help but laugh. Of course mom sat there and watched the whole thing, completely intrigued. It doesn't take much for her though. One glimmer of romance and she is sold. Nevermind the EXTREMELY bad acting and jumpy plot line. Its got kissing - its a keeper.
After that my parents and I went out to dinner. We ended up at Ricatoni's. LOVE IT! For all of you who like Old Venice, this place is even better! If you ever come to Florence, you must visit. So I had my usual ravioli and enjoyed every second of it. I was hoping the baby would enjoy it and do a little happy dance, but nothing. Oh well.
Then, we were off to Target to get a few things and of course ended up in the baby department. I just LOVE looking at all that stuff. Its so crazy to think we will have a little one here in a few months. Mom and I looked at cribs at this super cute baby store the other day and found some really great ones. I'm going to use a simple bassennet while living with my parents, but when Adam comes back in December I'm going to let him look at the cribs I like and help me pick one for us to order in May/June when we move back to Starkville. Here's a pic of two of my favorites.
I had every intention of posting yesterday, but I was kinda down. I didn't have to work, so I kinda bummed around the house and got a little depressed I guess. I slept with one of Adam's old shirts last night for some comfort, but I probably sniffed all of the "Adam smell" out of it. I put it by my face and just kept taking in deep breaths. It did make me feel a little closer to him for a while... he'd laugh if he heard me talk about that. I can just hear him now "Wait, you smelled it? I have a smell? Well, is it bad? Well if it's not bad, what is it?" He's so cute. Its funny how you can almost read a person's thoughts or reactions after you spend so long with them. I mean, not that Adam and I have been together forever or anything, but I still have a pretty good idea of what he would say or do in certain situations. I laugh a lot when mom and I look at baby clothes. I always picture Adam rolling his eyes as we "awwwww!" and "sooo cute!" everything we see. He would also die if he could see some of the boy clothes I pick up. I'll grab an adorable little set blue gingham overalls with a turtle on it and think ,ok, if Adam were here he would be saying "don't you dare put our boy in that! Its completely gay! Jessica! Seriuosly! Put that down!" Well, he's not here so at least I will get to put him/her in cutesy for a few months!
I feel like this was a very uneventful and boring post. Oh well, here's to the boring life!
******So I am totally mad at blogger right now. I wrote a short little blog yesterday and clicked the insert picture button and it totally froze my computer (yet another reason I didn't post anything yesterday). I did the same thing for this post and it froze it again. I have tried it like 5 times. Each time I have to go the task manager and end the task for my computer to even do anything. What is going on??? I hate that I can't put in pictures. I had some great ones of the Tempted movie, the gingham overalls, the cribs... ugh. Well, just visualize on your own! *******
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Are you right-handed or left-handed? Left (I've heard that means I smart... haha)
Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Um this question confuses and disturbs me... I mean I saw that when Hope did this she mentioned teeth... that would have to be the extent of it for me. Oh soon I will have a baby removed! Well, wait, if all goes well, I guess the baby isn't really REMOVED... whatever, next question.
What is the last heavy item you lifted? Oh wow, let me think back. Everyone has been so generous in letting me stand by and watch the lifting since I am preggo. I suppose it would have been something for school while I was packing up my classroom.
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? I used to think I would want to know, but now there is no way I would want to find out
If you could change your name, what would you change it to? Wow.. I would have a double name. I just adore them. If we have a little girl one day she will have a double name.
Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? No way! I don't think you could even pay me $10,000 to do it. When I say I hate spicy stuff, I mean I HATE spicy stuff. Equate it with someone asking you to drink poop water or something.
How many pairs of flip flops do you own? Wow, if I wasn't living with my parents (aka NO closet space) I would definately run and count them...(it would buy me another few minutes of preoccupation) however, my shoes are currently EVERYWHERE so I will have to guess at around 10-15
Last time you had a run-in with the cops? Wow, I really have no idea. I have been pulled over several times so I suppose it would be one of those instances. (Can I just throw in that it rocks being a girl. I mean I have cried my way out of at least 5 tickets)
Last person you talked to in person ? My Momma
Favorite Month? June (well except this one) hmmm, I guess I need to change it to May since that's when Adam comes home for good. Oh, or December when the baby is born and I get to see him... ah, the indecisiveness... May, final answer.
Missing someone? Of course. I only mention him at least twice every sentence. I shoulda named the blog "Me talking about Adam"
Mood? bored/sad... but getting better!
What are you listening to? nothing, mom and dad are sleeping. Wow, I totally feel like I am in high school again after that.
Watching? the computer, the TV is on mute in the background but can't say I am watching it.
Worrying about? take a guess... did you guess ADAM? You're right! Sorry, no prizes. What's the line they use? "Void where prohibited"
What’s the last movie you watched? X-Men Origins: Wolverine. As I said, very pleased.
Do you smile often? Here lately it hasn't been so much, but under normal circumstances I like to think I do
Do you always answer your phone? No. If you have ever called, texted, or just know me for that matter, you know it is a rare occassion for me to answer my phone. I don't know why that is exactly. I am also horrible at returning calls. Maybe this will help everyone to not take it personally - "its not you, its me." hahaha.
It’s four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it? Usually I would say Kristen, but lately (because of his schedule) I would say Adam.
If you could change your eye color what would it be? BLUE! I ADORE blue eyes. I tried the colored contacts once but, get this, all colored contact manufacturers are pupil descriminative!! I know, right?! Have you been descriminated against because of your pupil size? I feel your pain... let it out.... See, the colored portion of the contact surrounds your whole eye and they leave a clear part in the center to accomodate for your pupil. Well this "hole" is a one size fits all deal. My pupil happens to be larger than that hole, so I had vision distortion from the colored portion of the contact going into the line of my pupil. Darn companies. This is 2009, wake up. We're not all a size zero pupil. Maybe I could get into some plus-size pupil negotiations.
What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? I don't add flavor; in fact, I rarely go to Sonic.
Do you own a digital camera? Of course. I think the four year old down the street has a digital camera.
Have you ever had a pet fish? Yes. When I was a kid and in college. Poor Gilly died soon after arrive in Florence for his first vacation from Starkville. I tried to distill water from the tap by leaving it out in an open container for a day. Apparently, that internet trick didn't work or I didn't leave it out long enough because Gilly soon found his way to that big tank in the sky. I burried him in our backyard. (Yes, this was my college fish. I grew attached, ok?)
Favorite Christmas song? I couldn't even begin to chose. I am a little obsessed with Christmas.
What’s on your wish list for your birthday? Hmm, quite a ways away. Can't say I have thought about it. If it were my pretend wish list it would be filled with Adam's name.
Can you do push-ups? I could pre-baby. Can't say I have tried any lately.
Can you do a chin up? haha. I think I tried once at Adam's parents' house and I didn't quite make it.
Does the future make you more nervous or excited? Lately both. I used to always get excited about the future, thinking everything would somehow magically work out. However, with Adam gone, I worry constantly about the future.
Do you have any saved texts? No. I mean my phone keeps them in my inbox for a while, but I don't have any that I read and was like "oh, I need to keep that!"
Ever been in a car wreck? Yes. Quite a few fender benders that resulted in lose of one or more side mirrors (I took off so many of those things my parents started to wonder if I had some hidden vendetta against them) The other was still a small fender bender but I did hurt my neck and had to get interviewed and stuff by the insurance agency to pay for doctor bills.
Do you have an accent? When I am talking I don't really pick up on a southern accent, but when I have something played backed to me that I have said I think I sound totally red neck.
What is the last song to make you cry? Rascal Flatts "Stand". I was alone in my car thinking about Adam and that song came on the ipod. I think I mostly cried because I felt like they were talking about my life. Somewhat of a mess, but that I needed to realize what I am made of, brush myself off, and stand.
Plans tonight? Hm, the night is almost over. I didn't really do anything except talk to Adam and take Abby for a walk with my mom.
Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? I think everyone has. If you haven't I need your name and address; not so I can find out your secret, but to come over there and kick you. Sorry, that was mean. I think I am a little mad at happy people right now.
Name 2 things you bought yesterday. Um I bought KFC for myself and my parents when we stopped to eat on the way back to Florence. Love me some KFC mac-n-cheese!!
You ever been given roses? Yup. Flowers are so lovely. I truly adore lilies though.
Current hate right now? War, the military, everything keeping me from Adam.
Met someone who changed your life? Absolutely. I think everyone you meet has some sort of effect on the rest of your life. I mean, I could pan out a whole "butterfly effect" deal of how one seemingly meaningless person has completely impacted my entire life. (I will spare you the boredom though! haha)
What song represents you? Wow, that is tough... "Bitch" comes to mind right now only because I am still dealing with the modiness from my crazy hormones. I also say that because Meredith Brooks sings about being so many different things at once and I feel that totally summarizes me at this point.
What were you doing 12 AM last night? Well, its almost 12 now... right now I am desperately trying to occupy my time. LAST night, I was sleeping at 12.
Aw, all done. Well, that did take a good bit of time to complete. I'm sure these questions weren't meant for paragraph responses, but the more I can drag out an activity the better! I have managed to pull my mind away from the pity party and that is success. Maybe you enjoyed my tangents and got a little late night amusement! Good night!
Jun 12, 2009
P.S. - Baby Martin is still doing well! :)
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And lastly, I have GOT to find a job!!! I cannot stay at the house anymore!!! But who in the world is going to hire a pregnant lady who is only going to be here for a year?? I need a nice temporary job just to get me out of the house. Any suggestions? My mom says that I need to find something that won't require me to be on my feet all day. I don't understand her logic now, but I am assuming that as I get bigger this will be of vital importance. I like being on my feet and running around. I can't stand a job where I just sit still all day. Well, if anyone can think of anything, PLEASE let me know!!