If you have ever been pregnant I'm sure you feel my absolute shock when I say that we have 18 days until our due date. ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? That is insane! On one hand it does feel like I've been pregnant forever, but on the other, these past few weeks have FLOWN by. Everytime I get mom to do my weekly belly picture I say "wow, didn't we just do this?". Anyway, I've got my weekly appointment today so we'll see if we've made any progress. I am 37 weeks now, but still hoping she is hanging out for Adam. I do have to share a little secret though....while I do tell her and pray everyday that she waits for Adam, in the back of my mind it wouldn't hurt my feelings if she came right now! I am just so uncomfortable and ready for this baby to come out!!! I have to take it day by day or otherwise I don't know if I could make it. I know it will all be worth it in the end, but I suppose thats difficlut to realize when you have to roll to get up and feel like you're carrying a bowling ball between your legs.
So last night I had a major reminiscing fest. As I'm sure I've mentioned multiple times, I do not sleep at night. So instead of getting in bed and just laying there as I usually do, I decided to bust out the video camera and watch some home movies (We've had this camera for like 2 years and still haven't transfered all the video to the computer!) Anyway, I watched the surprise deployment party I threw for Adam, some clips from our trip to Chicago, hanging out with friends at our house, and Christmas at his parents, my parents, and on the coast. I don't think the smile left my face for the whole 2 hours I was absorbed at the computer. It was amazing to remember how life was when Adam was here. How happy we were. And, sadly, how much we took it for granted. We were so carefree and had no idea how perfect everything was. While I do still think we are extremely blessed, that point in our lives was truly amazing. I hope that this separation allows Adam and I to never take our time together for granted again! I love him and miss him so much and I can't believe he will be home in less than 2 weeks!!!!!
Before I head off to start the day, I have to share the cutest thing. My aunt told me about this little conversation yesterday and I couldn't stop laughing. Little kids' minds are just amazing. So at the family Thanksgiving while Emily was looking at my belly she told my aunt Lisa that she wanted to take out Maggie Claire and play with her. Lisa said "well we can't do that because we want Adam to be here before she comes." To this the brilliant Emily replied "Well, can't we just take her out and play with her and then put her back before he gets home?" hahaha. So adorable. I must admit that I am right there with Emily in her line of thinking though - I wish I could take MC out, hold her and snuggle her (and get some much needed pregnancy relief!), and then just put her back before Adam comes home. Oh well, once again, it will all be worth it when that precious little girl gets here!!! Hope everyone has a great week and I'll post an update after my doctor's appointment! :)
4 comments:
It has been my pleasure to follow the progress of your pregnancy which you generously shared with us via your blog. Thanks for allowing me a glimpse of this experience.
You guys are going to be amazing parents. Rarely do I come across a couple, much less individuals, like you and Adam. It honestly feels like it was just a few weeks ago that I started following your blog--yet here we are, 30 somthing weeks later. Unreal. Jess, I can't imagine what it feels like to know that Adam will soon be here to great MC. I know what being 4 years old and "going to sleep" on Christmas Eve felt like... I'm certain it doesn't come anywhere close to how you feel with two of your greatest gifts about to come home to you.
Just as "Ann" has said... that you so much for letting us follow you on this emotional journey. I think I speak for many when I confess that it has been enjoyable, yet interesting, to see how you have grown through this very unique experience. You have truly grown into your new state of mind and upcoming position in life. I know you are thinking, "what? I haven't changed!" But, you truly have... all for the better of course. I can see it in your writing and the stories you tell... you have gone from a fearfull twenty something to embracing the challenge and rising above. Adam is going to be insanely proud of you when he comes home to discover this...
I know we all are!
Love from Denver,
me
Wow... sorry for the typos. Lesson learned. I don't need to stop proof reading anytime soon!
how crazy! 18 days is so soon!!
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