Hello New Career

Well, I've done it yet again. I've changed my mind and my career. Let me elaborate (because I know the bloggy world is just DYING to know the details of my complete multiple-personality-career disorder)

Some of you might know that the entire time I was growing up I wanted to be a doctor. A pediatrician to be more precise. Then, as I got older and learned more about the profession, I decided that might not be the best idea since #1 I desperately wanted to get married and have children BEFORE I was 30 (we all know how long you have to go to school to be a doctor) and #2 I pretty much stink at math and its definately not my favorite thing to do. Anyway, throughout high school I found a few other career options but quickly nixed them due to whatever reason (law, optometry, etc.) I then went into college completely uncertain of what the crap I was going to do with my life.

I then decided teaching would be a great fit so I major in elementary education. I graduated with honors and thought I had really found my "calling". Well, let's move to year two of teaching.... INSANE. I can't even begin to describe my first two years of teaching. Totally re-evaluated everything. I then worked a few receptionist type jobs while I did the whole soul searching thing. I truly thought about what aspects of each career I liked and what I didn't and my specific personality traits that would help me excel in whatever profession I chose. I then decided on real estate...

Skip to present day. I did my course work and took my state test in December and am now a licensed real estate salesperson. However, as with any job, it requires a great deal of knowledge about the business- something which I do not have. I am therefore working as an assistant with a real estate agent until I feel comfortable stepping out on my own. Its already proven to be a great learning experience and I hope I will continue absorb this crazy amount of information.

This brings me to my current state of complete horror. I feel like an idiot. I do this with every single new job I take on... I think "oh my gosh. I'm a retard (accent on the second syllable as noteably stated in The Hangover) and will never learn how to do this properly." Am I alone on this? Any other spastic, perfectionistic, OCD crazed people experience the "what was I smoking when I decided to do this - I will never get it" feeling? Yeah, thats me right now. Real estate is a VERY complicated career and all the legalities only add to my overwhelming, yet unfounded fears that I will do something wrong and be sued or thrown in jail with a manlady named Bob who wants to make me her "special" friend. Oh dear God, I'm having a panic attack. Maggie Claire will be the kid in school who's mom "wears that funny orange zip up thingy and pals around with the psycho cat lady who killed her husband" Not good.

Seriously, it all makes me quite nervous (as if you can't tell). I basically jumped in a career I know NOTHING about with past experience that has NOTHING to do with my new endeavor. However, Adam says that no one knows everything when they start something and I will learn as I go. Let's hope he's right. I'll keep ya posted as everything develops. Until then, I will continue to sport my deer-in-headlights expression as each new form, law, data sheet, input information, ect is thrown my way :) Hopefully its a good look for me....

Have a happy weekend!