Dec 20, 2009

Bye Bye Blues?

Okay, so I feel as though I have done a complete 180 since my last post. I have now gone three days without crying and I have actually eaten at least one meal every day. Things are looking up.

I am starting to feel much closer to Maggie Claire now, which makes me feel AWESOME. I look at her and smile now - not cry. I'm not sure if its the medicine kicking in, talking with a counselor, others prayers, or the fact that my mother has handled the early morning feedings the past two nights so I could get some rest. Either way, I feel refreshed, recharged, and actually happy.

Maggie Claire is doing well too. Its amazing how alert she is now. She will follow voices and is completely enthralled with certain objects like the mobile on her swing and some of the toys I bought for her. I wish Adam was here to see how much she has changed and grown in a matter of one week. Speaking of Adam, I am starting to feel better about that situation too. I had come to grips with things while I was pregnant and thought I was doing a pretty good job dealing with him being gone. However, after he left this time I didn't think I would ever stop crying. It was heart wrenching. I guess its much like everything else in life though and gets better with time. Don't get me wrong, I still miss him terribly, but I am slowly regaining my previous strength in dealing with it.

I want to extend a thanks to everyone who commented on my last post. I truly appreciate all of your throughts and prayers. They are probably the reason I am feeling better today. I will continue to keep you posted with how things are going!

PS - First funny baby story: So, MC was in her pack and play and it was almost time to feed her so I thought I would change her diaper. WOOO! BIG STINKY! As I am wiping her cute little poopy bottom, she starts tee-teeing everywhere! Wonderful. Here I am, poopy wipe in hand trying to catch the pee pee which is now pooling up beneath her (Yes, I still had her diaper under her bottom, but since it was poopy, I had it closed under her... the pee pee just ran right down the incline it created) As if this wasn't interesting enough, Maggie Claire then spits up. I have no hands left. The spit up starts running down the side of her face and into her ear. Are you kidding me? Tell me there are no more holes for anything to come out of! Needless to say, I stripped her down and she got her bath early that night...


C & A said...

I was going to comment on your earlier post, but I didn't find the time until now. So I will just comment once. :-)
I think every mother goes through the baby blues. It is soooo hard! I cried for like 2-3 weeks after VG was born. I didn't have time to eat or sleep and I was so worried about us being able to provide for her with me being a SAHM. It was awful. Needless to say, I prayed more in those few weeks than I have probably prayed in my whole life (that's sad on my part!). But it eventually got better and I was so ashamed at myself for the way I felt during the first few weeks.
Bottom line, having a baby is life changing, as you know, and it takes a little time to get adjusted to things. But it DOES get better!!! In a few months, you will look back and think, "It wasn't THAT bad!" Anywho. Hope things keep getting better!! :-)

Katie said...

hahaha funny MC story! And I am so glad you are feeling better!

Becky said...

I am glad things are better! That is a funny story! I hope things continue to get better! Keeping all of you guys in my thoughts and prayers!


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